♥ Truth Is Beautiful ; But So Are Lies.

i'm feeling horribly upset with myself.
i just feel like jumping down the building straightaway.
got back most papers today.
& i did very very very badly for everything.
every single bloody thing larhs.
i am fucking pissed off by some people.
including myself. but mostly by other people.
it totally spoils my mood & appetite.
especially teachers, they don't think before they say.
practically despise us & ostracising us.
my self-esteem immediately took a bullet train down from the 1oo storey to basement 1.
feels like i lost everything in the world.
i absoultely hate it when people get way better grades & they still seem to be in a bad mood.
so what if it wasn't up to your parent's standards?
does mine ours look like its up to our parent's standards too? no, it doesn't.
you jolly well know that you did much more well than everyone else.
somehow people can just dig marks out of somewhere to add.
Jaime & i couldn't find any. so forget it.
my self-esteem gone another 1oo storeys down.
which leaves me in a bad mood too.
arghs, just fuck everything upside down larhs.
my mum's adding salt to the wound.
& it makes my blood boils more.



& i am just going to sit in one corner of my room.
start crying my eyes out & cut my wrists.
yes, i'm emo. i might do just that.