♥ Truth Is Beautiful ; But So Are Lies.

yeah lahhs! everything also my fault lors.
you were the one who caused me to throw my fucking temper at you alright.
get that fucking straight! nabei.
so you think i'm like so bloody hopeless right?
you wish for me to go na & ite is it?
its not my mind that is simple. its yours!
you don't even know what is the whole fucking system lahs.
you simply despise all your children, don't you?
especially me!
why rack up all the past?
what caused all this to happen?
you yourself what. why is it always everyone who's at fault & you are the one who's right?
i go home so fucking early nowadays alright.
so what if i tell everything to my friends?
i have the right to do so, don't i?
& I TRUST MY FRIENDS MORE THAN I TRUST YOU.
its not like i tell you & you'd understand.
you don't, its pointless to even tell you anything.
you say you've tolerated me for so long.
like i don't?
if you knew how to be a better mother, all this shit wouldn't have even happened initially!
can you just stop exaggarating things like the situation is so drastic?
you think this is reverse psychology? NO, it isn't.
you're just lowering my self esteem more & more.
can't you just give me a moment of peace?
you have nothing better to do than to make me feel so fucking pissed off with you & then you can find faults with me is it?
kanina, you derive pleasure from seeing me so devastated all because of you?
you just make me hate this fucking home more & more!
i don't mean to hurt you or anything. you're my mother.
& i know you have your own problems too.
sometimes you're really nice, but most of the time, you make me feel like i am just some toy for you to vent your anger on.
why must you pick on me? of all the 3 of us?
can you just try & understand me more, please?
ahhhh, perhaps not.
you're never gonna read this post & know how i feel.