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i am feeling extremely drowsy. my eyelids are getting heavier & heavier as every second ticks by.

i vomited several times today & felt very giddy. oh no, i'm not pregnant. its because of the painkiller i took & anasthetic injection for my laser treatment. the anasthetic wasn't the full kind. it doesn't knock one out when you count to 3. in fact, one will just feel nauseous & drowsy. so actually i am aware of my surroundings & pain even after the injection.


fuck, i can feel the blood trickling down my back now. & its staining my shirt. arghs! >:(


i thought the anasthetic would alleviate the pain better for today's laser. but no, it was just as painful than the previous or perhaps more painful. i was shivering like hell during the process. because the layer of skin is getting thinner & reacts sensitively to anything. even scratching it when its itchy, the laser-ed tattoo will have a stinging feeling.

as usual, there would be heavy bleeding & i hate it. it irritates the shit out of me. it dirties my clothes, my bedsheets etc. & i always have difficulties bathing for the next few days to 1 week. fortunately, the doctor issued Cheryl & i MCs for tomorrow, so we can rest at least.

i have many pills to take. approximately 6? & the anti-biotics tablet is so damn fucking big that sometimes i have trouble swallowing them down. :(

&& i love Cheryl & Lydia like truckloads. they're so much sweeter than some people. of course, i do love my boyfriend & i miss him terribly. not forgetting my brothers either. ;D

i am really sleepy. toodles people~