♥ Truth Is Beautiful ; But So Are Lies.

so close to that famous happy end? nope.

i'm feeling pretty dysphoric & pissed these few weeks, its the 3rd week alr. huge fights for 3 consecutive weeks, not everyday though, but i'm so sick & tired of it. its the same shit he brings out each time, it's really obtuse & seriously, it tickles me pink. go on, throw a hissy fit like always. when will we be back like how we used to?

prompting me to break up with you? well, i wouldn't agree no matter how much i do. the more miserable you are, the happier i am. yes, i'm sick in the head. just like you. why not voice it out yourself when you want it so badly?

i'm childish? what makes you think that you're way developed in your thinking than i am? oh, people who buys thing for their moms are considered matured. wow...as if you have in your almost 19 years of your life. you really amaze me. lets see, infantile people fight with another of the same sex over the opposite sex, impulsively. does this sound familiar? of course, it so totally fits you. maybe you'd want to try attending some anger management courses, it might help or maybe they wouldn't. & what else, people with serious attitude problems can be considered matured? thats completely ridiculous. my balls would be laughing if i had any. so who are you to judge me? look at yourself before you really want to make a statement, really. cause in the end you will turn out to be a joke to me.

who's the one acting like an obsessive, & a possessive control freak? me? haha. i'm not obsessive and possessive. you started trying to dominate, so i would do the same to protect myself. i'm not stupid, i would never allow myself to be blindly led in the nose by you. its utter nonsense when you tell me i cannot smoke when you yourself smoke like nobody's business. if you don't smoke & i smoke, i wouldn't object if you stop me from doing so. but it's not like that, so since i can't be a social smoker, why not you quit smoking in return? i can't meet my best friends just because they happen to be guys? its not like i'm the only female there when i meet them. oh, of course, you wouldn't believe me when i tell you that either. don't expect me to sit when you want me to, stay when you want me to. want a girlfriend like that? too bad i'm not. & sorry, i'm not someone who likes to be under any form of restraint cause i will rebel at any odds.

so, you say i was good at the start, then i turned bad, good for a moment & back to bad again. awww, but to me, you were good at the beginning & bad for the rest. so why should i be good? only sometimes, for a few times you are really nice & sweet which of course, don't last long.

you can't be what i want, so why should i be what you expect me to be?

you're egoistic, so am i. what a pity then.